Merry Christmas!

How would you gonna celebrate the Christmas day? Our church has a slightly different plan this year, we are going to have a party at a spastic children center in PJ on Christmas eve. Guess what? There will be more than hundreds of non-christian turn up that night! Well, guess many of us will going to play the role as angels played when Jesus was born!;)
Here also, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all bloggers I know!

Disappointment With God!?

I love Yancey’s book, this is one I am reading recently. I believe this book will definitely bring new spark of insight for those who feel deep disappointment or deep sense of “betrayal” when God let us down…for those who eventually lost faith on what we once believed….for those who keen to trace the evidence of love from God…

It brings a profound impact on sincere seekers, or least it offers a direction for those who hope to have a more mature relationship with God through our spiritual journey.

May God give us faith to fully trust His Word though everything else witness the other way. --C. H. P.

When is the time to trust?
Is it when all is calm,
When waves the victor's palm,
And life is one glad psalm
Of joy and praise?
Nay! but the time to trust
Is when the waves beat high,
When storm clouds fill the sky,
And prayer is one long cry,
O help and save!

When is the time to trust?
Is it when friends are true?
Is it when comforts woo,
And in all we say and do
We meet but praise?
Nay! but the time to trust
Is when we stand alone,
And summer birds have flown,
And every prop is gone,
All else but God.

What is the time to trust?
Is it some future day,
When you have tried your way,
And learned to trust and pray
By bitter woe?
Nay! but the time to trust
Is in this moment's need,
Poor, broken, bruised reed!
Poor, troubled soul, make speed
To trust thy God.

What is the time to trust?
Is it when hopes beat high,
When sunshine gilds the sky,
And joy and ecstasy
Fill all the heart?
Nay! but the time to trust
Is when our joy is fled,
When sorrow bows the head,
And all is cold and dead,
All else but God.

God always oversees; He never overlooks.

When you find yourself in quicksand, suddenly everything went wrong, shrouded in the darkness of unknown hindrances. What would you do? A Chinese saying, ‘when the roof is leaking, that night come pouring rain!’ There is really little else I can do…thankful for the great mercies of God for He has keep sending me strength and faith, "Let not those who wait for You, O Lord God of hosts, be ashamed"

March forward!!!

~Annie Johnson Flint

Have you come to the Red Sea place in your life,
Where, in spite of all you can do,
There is no way out, there is no way back,
There is no other way but through?
Then wait on the Lord with a trust serene
Till the night of your fear is gone;
He will send the wind, He will heap the floods,
When He says to your soul, "Go on."

And His hand will lead you through--clear through--
Ere the watery walls roll down,
No foe can reach you, no wave can touch,
No mightiest sea can drown;
The tossing billows may rear their crests,
Their foam at your feet may break,
But over their bed you shall walk dry shod
In the path that your Lord will make.

In the morning watch, 'neath the lifted cloud,
You shall see but the Lord alone,
When He leads you on from the place of the sea
To a land that you have not known;
And your fears shall pass as your foes have passed,
You shall be no more afraid;
You shall sing His praise in a better place,
A place that His hand has made.

I've no answer for you!

I do not know if this is a symptom of "aging" or the symptom of "unspeakableness" (it breaks out from time to time :)), tired to engage on some sophisticated questions that seem to lead to restless debate and arguments with my brilliant friends.

I've posted some articles regarding my research on civilizations, religion and political issues; it was my assignments, which was done years ago. In fact, I know I should not be lazy in my thinking. Anyway, you could also find that my respective blogs are linked to some other site, such as agnostic, atheism, liberalism etc. It is for those who are interested to get further knowledge in order to inspire and widen our perspective on concerned topics.

As for me, being a born theism, I am always curious about how an atheist thinks, and it is always incredible to find how an atheist can be led to be an agnostic? Skepticism is allowed in Christianity, however, I think, (that's why Christians do not pursue and wipe out the author of The Da Vinci Code,J but to be honest, it is irritating when my friends try to tease me as "mainstream" Christian who refuse to admit that Jesus was married with a child, or in fact what’s wrong a man to get married and have a child??) or more accurately I should say, that, we shall not keep a closed-minded prejudice rather. Without doubt, to understand the Truth, knowledge is required to "test everything".

They welcomed the message very eagerly and examined the Scripture every day to see whether these things were so...( Acts 17:11b)

After all, these bring advantages to the Truth seeker as well. As I said, the contribution of Enlightenment not only offered mankind a critical rational thinking and emancipated men and women from spiritual less religion bound, and also to recover the unique and honor of mankind, indeed, reason, is a very amazing gift that is given by God.

Rational thinking or reason is a primal gift to discover the meaning of life, it is no doubt an implement to discern the profound mystery of the universe, and helps us to come out with various conclusion or presumption. (Since somebody questions my training in philosophy due to my religious passion, to be a little proud to say, luckily I scored straight As for my Logic and Contemporary Western Philosophy subjects from year 1 till year 4 in my philosophy studies, as well as the Contemporary Western Civilization in Master studies. But somehow when my friends who challenged me the reason why Jesus was not allow to marry, when I answered because Jesus is the son of God, they just laughed out loud!!!) I never denied that the philosophy and logical training are very important, but friend, not everything can be understood in a logical way as you wish. All presumptions should lead to the very old questions of life, such as, where did you come from? Where will you go? And, Who Are We?

As for religion today in the West particularly, it became rather nihilism, formalism and relativism (As for relativism, I believe the critical question is to be or not to be is no more a problem for them).

Due to its various emancipative movements which have gone too far, for instance, the LGBT movement and so on (this is a tough and critical issue anyway, open-mindedness does not mean the tolerant open-mindedness of a convictionless ideological pluralism. Well, I can see some people are starting to feel uncomfortable for my "mainstream" Christianity's statement which sounds like a trick for them). Gay priests can be anointed and manifest churches have compromised the Truth they once held steadfast (however, when churches tend to be customers-oriented, there will be no more God within).

Therefore it is no surprise to know a person who has been a Christian for more than 25 years starts to doubt what he or she was raised to believe, just because of a novel called "The Da Vinci Code". How fragile is the little poor soul, not necessary to blame anyone who tries to accuse or challenge Christianity. Once again I have to say as I said, (I hope nobody would think I am throwing a stone here, I am by no means like to condemn G&L as a Pharisee used to do). Even put my friendship with gay and lesbian friends who proclaimed herself or himself as a Christian on the verge of a cliff.

"Yes, I may do anything, but everything is not constructive", when there are so many G&L schools and theologies trying and seem to have convince you logically, wittedly, convincingly... which in fact goes against your faith, instead of man, seek God for the answer, ask the Holy Spirit to grant you discernment, and "test everything; hold fast to what is good" (1 Thess 5:12).

Let's find out what is the problem within oneself, deep in our soul and faith! And not to get lost inside the deep labyrinth of liberal pluralism and sophisticated philosophy!

Blossomy May

Blossomy May, it always remind me that this is the best month in the year when I was in Shanghai, I never love Shanghai except for this month. The weather is just nice to feel relaxed and enable you to think clearly. You could see all kinds of fruits along the streets...skies are blue and trees are green, troubles are seemed taken away by the blessed winds. A pretty good season to have a cup of coffee with good friends, take a walk in the park with elders and listen to their very old stories....and grab the last grilled mutton satay before the summer if you crazy for these mutton satay as I do...

Though the world let you down, as long as you still feel your heart beating, never stop loving, enjoy a sunbathe with a bottle of beer beside a little pond....You could even speak out your hidden desires and laugh out loud....no body would blame you for your discourteous behavior in this happy season....just like Bee Gees's "Too Much Heaven"! This is a wonderful season for beautiful people to love, or to be loved! ..See you guys in Shanghai!

You raise me up!

What a bad fortune! Why I've always had to meet these shameless people all this while! Everything not going smooth recently, not a single thing goes smooth…! Shameless client refused to pay us the balance after we submitted the job!!! How contemptible is he!! All-important things I worked on recently somehow turn out a hopeless failure in last minute!! How perplexing!! I was loaded down with the heavy burden that You know I couldn't carry it alone... Rescue me Lord!....from insult that I might deserve due to my personal sin in the past.....for I am suffering from these insults that You know how it hit me impassively.... and how I am suffocating by distress that come along my way ....to see the loved one in misery give me a feeling of worthlessness and despair... How long do You think I can put out with these unexpected and upsetting stuffs, my Lord?? Do I still have strength to fight with the devil who come to me and trying to steal my faith!? And divert me from focusing on You! Can I stay the course for the sake of unseen promises?? ..... "hear O lord, when I cry with my voice", Please give me the solution that I need in order to move forwards in this area of my life.



I know He cannot fail,
But my depression continue,
For I do not know how to face tomorrow,
Burdened heart rolls out my soul in silence;
I remain speechless in darkness and couldn't say a prayer;
I hold my faith but yet shivered in a stormy night that was unexpected;

Until You come,
And spoke to me in gentle "pray always,
and not lose heart";
A verse I have been read over thousands and further;
It did not stun me until it merely a gentle remind from my dear Lord;
It unblocks my awareness of His mercy and presence;
Though my troubles not yet over,
But I am now again filled with His wonder power.

March, April 2006 HL

Trust The Lord!

Trust the Lord~~Author Unknown~~

Until I learned to trust the Lord,
I never learned to pray;
And never learned to fully trust,
Til sorrow came my way.

Until I felt my weakness,
His strength I never knew,
Nor dreamed, til I was stricken,
that He could see me through.
He who drinks deepest sorrow
Drinks deepest too of grace,
God sends the storm so He, himself,
Can be our resting place.

His heart, who seeks our deepest good,
Knows well when things annoy;
We would not yearn for Heaven
If earth held only joy!

I asked God ~Author unknown

A poem that best describe what I m feeling now, would like to share with you all!

I asked God for strength, that I might achieve,

I was made weak, that I might learn humbly to obey;

I asked for health, that I might do greater things,

I was given infirmity, that I might do better things;
I asked for riches, that I might be happy,

I was given poverty, that I might be wise;

I asked for power, that I might have the praise of man,

I was given weakness, that I might feel the need of God;
I asked for all things, that I might enjoy life,

I was given life, that I might enjoy things;

I got nothing that I asked for - but everything I had hoped for,

Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered,

I am among all men, most richly blessed.

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